I hate being in my 20s. I do. I really, really, really do. Your 20s are all about figuring out who you are, what you’re meant to do, where you’re meant to be, who’s going to be there for you and it freaking sucks. Because here’s the thing; you have this idea about how you want your life to be but you don’t know how to get there. It’s like the Pythagorean theorem. You have A (where you are) and you know the hyptoneuse (your end goal) is C but you have NO idea what B (what to do to get to C) is. And figuring out B is the hardest thing to do.
It feels like the end of the world. You see others who are basically your age already accomplishing things you want to do and you’re like, “Well dam I’m clearly doing something wrong with my life.” But you’re not. Even if it feels like you’re not doing enough, you probably are doing the most that you can possibly do at the moment. Everyone has their own path to follow as cliché as that might sound. It’s annoyingly true.
And yes, I’m still waiting for my sign from God to lead me in my direction, but for now I’m just doing what I can with what I’m given. So maybe this blog’s success may take some time, maybe I’m not sure if I want to do radio, journalism or both and maybe my subscriber count on YouTube might take months or years to gain action, but it’s something that’s bringing me happiness for the time being and who knows maybe it will bring some success at some point. But all I can do at the moment is do what I like and figure out what will stay with me and what I’ll let go.
Being in your 20s is all about the gray areas of your life that you’re trying to sort through. We each have our own road map. Eventually you’ll figure out what B in the equation that is your life and when you do everything will just fall into place.
“Sunflowers end up facing the sun, but they go through a lot of dirt to find their way there.”
― J.R. Rim