It was Saturday morning. I was sitting in my screen porch with a cup of coffee before it got too hot. I was in my brother’s old sweatpants and a baggy shirt. I had no makeup on and frizzy hair. I suffer from acne, frizzy hair, morning allergies, struggling to pass my Law and Ethics class, to find a job and going broke. Yet in this tiny moment I felt so at peace in my own skin.
Which brings me to the topic of today’s blog post:
This is the trial of Filter v. Reality.
We all understand the usage of filter. We use it in our daily lives. Not just in images or videos but in what we say. We are in a constant filter mode. But what happened to being real? What happened to valuing what’s real? We follow Instagrammers and youtubers because they showcase this lifestyle that we crave to have but not everything is what it seems. We don’t know what’s really happening behind the screen.
Granted there are influencers who keep it real because they want to show that life basically sucks and nothing is perfect.
We as society are so obsessed with ourselves. Obsessed with changing ourselves to get this unattainable nirvana that doesn’t exist. We see it in movies and read it in books. The people who have ‘everything’ are never truly happy most likely because they’re not happy with themselves.
I believe living in the reality of life is better. Because you’re willing to see everything as it is, learn from it and grow. When we see others going through the same issues it forms a kinship. “If this person made it through then so can I.” “I went /going through the same thing.” it shows were not alone.
Which is why I made a vow to myself and you can too if you want. I made a vow to love myself no matter how long it takes, learn the meaning of love in all of its forms, to never hide the harsh realities of my life and to live an unfiltered life.
It’s a lot harder than it seems.
“We live in a fantasy world, a world of illusion. The great task in life is to find reality.”