People constantly question your life choices. I for one am deeply bothered by it. “What are you studying?” “What are you doing?” “You sure you want a career pursing that?” “It’s just hard to make it you know.” I’ve gotten those questions since high school. But I’m a determined person who doesn’t settle for less. So I brush the negativity aside as best as I can. I won’t lie, there are moments where it does get to me and I have to really look inside and question myself.
I question who I am, what I’m doing and what i want to do. I’ve learned that questioning isn’t a bad thing per say. People asking you questions isn’t bad. Some are just curious and others want to see if you know what you know. If anything it solidifies if what you want is really what you want. I’ve learned that questioning leads to knowledge and understanding. Which makes the world a better place if people would take the time to understand.
But once you hit college and post-grad there is this tiny place that feels infinite. It’s gray and at times really dark. It can be lonely. It’s the town called Unknown. The Unknown is a very easy place to go. It’s on every map. It’s around the corner, passed the towns called, “Life, Career, School, Family and Love.” Each of those towns can be very scary. Sometimes they intertwine during festivals. So we drive down the street and land in Unknown City where we curl ourselves into a ball on a washed out mattress avoiding reality. It’s really easy to stay in the Unknown. But it’s not exactly scary depending on you. The Unknown is where you can reflect. You begin to think about all the dreams you had, unanswered prayers and it’s also filled with endless possibilities. Only if you choose to see it that way of course. It’s a place where you can do anything and everything. All it takes is for you to get off the mattress and explore.
One thing that boggles my mind is when people tell you how you should live your life and by when and then in a blink of an eye they say you have all the time in the world. That you’re young and therefore you don’t need to rush school or marriage or kids but please do all of that by 30. And own a house with a good paying job.
So which one is?
Do I focus on enjoying life?
Do I get married and have kids when I can’t even afford to live on my own?
Which is it folks?!
There is so much pressure from society because of how people use to live. You know the saying, “well when I was your age…” Times were different back then. School wasn’t as expensive and landing jobs weren’t as difficult. Then you have the media where people broadcast their seemingly perfect life and you begin to think, “Why haven’t I done that yet?”
I turn 24 in a few months and in no shape or form am I ready. There is so much to figure out. And despite all the noise, negativity and unwanted comments I’m sitting here saying screw it!
20-30’s is all about traveling, going out, learning who you are, where you wanna be and who you want to spend it with. I don’t want to regret who I’ll become. I want to be proud and inspire others. Maybe I’ll do that with this blog or maybe I’ll do it some other way. I’m not rushing. God has shown me time and time again that there is a road to be walked not run.
So for all you people who are just scraping by. It’s okay. So am I. I literally had to clean a shed with a co-worker today. And no I don’t want to be a shed cleaner for the rest of my life but until I become a famous journalist/blogger/social media manager/photographer it’s what I got to do. And yes I listed a bunch of things that I want to do. And yes I don’t care because anything is possible. I refuse to do one thing for the rest of my life. It’s not how I was raised.
So to end this blog post I just gotta say shine that crown of yours, wear it proudly even if it has a few rusty edges and strut out of the Unknown into a life of your creation.